Breaking through

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Return and report tomorrow is my No. 1 goal for today. Listening for the growl and total obedience. Getting rid of the excuses and eating too much sugar. Listening and obeying will be my motto. See you tomorrow dear blog.

Today was total focus on listening to God's leading. I ate when my tummy growled and small, small bites. All under God's rule. It feels great.

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I feel driven to be thin and am working toward listening to God's will for how much and when to eat. Scripture reading helps so much as well as journaling.

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It was a good day as I listened for the growl and stopped before getting too full.
I ate small, wonderfully filling amounts. Read this from Elder Christofferson, Gen.Conf. Apr 2009. .
First, as we walk in obedience to the principles and commandmednts of the gospel of Jesus Christ, we enjoy a continual flow of blessings promised by God in His covenant with us. Those blessings provide the resources we need to act rather than simply be acted upon as we go through life. For example, the Lord's commandments in the Word of Wisdom regarding the care of our physical bodies bless us first and foremost with "wisdom and great treasures of knowledge. D&C 89:19.

Furthermore, they lead to a generally more healthy life and freedom from destructive addictions. Obedience gives us greater control over our lives, greater capacity to come and go , to work and create. ...our obedience to this gospel law enhances our capacity to deal with these challenges.

This message was meant for me to read today. It helped me a great deal to realize God has commanded me, Carol, to stop being a food addict and love on Him.

162.0 weighin today 5/18/09

Greed

Waited for the growl and bypassed breakfast. Ate out with Bob at the Thai House and stopped when full. Bob ate supper and 6:30 and I joined him without a growl. So stupid. Ate more food than I needed. I must must stop controlling the amount of food I eat and let God's will rule. He gives me that pleasant full feeling and my head and greed says it tastes so good eat just a little more. But this is me controlling, me playing god, me, me. I'm sick of getting it wrong and being out of God's control.

Did not eat any more food after supper as is my usual routine. I love to take a growl to bed as I kneel down and pray and thank God for my day. How to work on this greedy appetite that is getting overfull and hurting me and my spirit growth? I will find a scripture to share for this problem:

2 Nep. 12:17 And the loftiness of Carol shall be bowed down, and the haughtiness of Carol shall be made low; and the Lord alone shall be exalted in that day.

18. And the idols he shall utterly abolish.

My idols are worshiping food and obeying my greedy appetite more than God's will. I am ashamed and pray to God for help to stop this.

163.5 weighs me down. How can I be set free from these chains of rebellion.
John 8:32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.
What is my truth?
Do I know how much food I eat? No
Then write it on a 3x5 index card and cut back and stop mindlessly rebelling.
If you are out, write it on your Centro phone.
God is with you. He wants you to know the truth. Jesus Christ is truth.
Listen to their will for you today and joy will fill your heart with this truth.

1st Growl: 1/4c six grain cereal, tea, 2T.Coolwhip
2nd Growl: Diet CF coke, 1/2 of restaurant meal
3rd Growl: Tea, 8" plate spaghetti supper at church 6pm

Did I do all that I could do to follow the empty and full signals? No
I ate lunch without growl but with a headache starting.
Third meal was at 4:30pm eating past full.

Ready for bed. Prayer and repentance.

Tomorrow I will journal what I eat and post it.

Weigh today

WT. 161.5

As I stepped on the scales, I knew my focus would be on God's will today.

Scripture: Alma 61:15

The Spirit of God...is also the spirit of freedom.

The freedom I seek today is to be unchained from the food idols I obey.

The freedom I pray for today is to focus on God's will for me.

When to eat -- How much -- What He wants me to accomplish.

I am asking God that his spirit will guide me as I commit to listen and obey.

Tonight I shall return and report.

This blog begins tomorrow May 14, 2009.

My plan is to weigh on the scales and post

my daily weight with messages about how I am doing, prayers, and helps.

My goal is to follow this plan until July 29, 2009. Then reassess.

This blog is about a relationship with God in everything.

Yes, everything including how much I weigh and how

I will learn obedience through following his laws of hunger (growl)

and fullness (stopping when full), leaning on his Word to fill me

up when head hunter strikes. This is my starting picture and

weight will be listed tomorrow.